S_I_X!!!!

He woke up the next morning about six a.m. completely disorientated but he figured out where he was after thinking for a few seconds. “Well I suppose I could make him breakfast before school to show him I fully intend to pull my weight around here.” Grinning he climbed out of bed and headed down stairs.

Moaning he turned over in bed at the smell of bacon, his eyes flew open at that thought. “Bacon, but who…?” He came up with the only logical person, Sei must have gotten up early to cook this morning, smiling he got up and threw on some clothes as he headed to the kitchen.

He looked up when he heard footsteps and smiled when Himoto came walking in. “Good morning sleepy head.”

“Uh morning.” He looked around at the bacon, eggs, and pancakes. “So what’s with all this?” He looked up at Sei who had a proud smile beaming on his face.

“Well I wanted you to know that I’m not completely useless so I decided to make you breakfast.” He looked at Himoto hoping he hadn’t done anything wrong by cooking.

“Well even though you didn’t need to go through so much trouble I am grateful to you for it because I haven’t had a home cooked meal of any kind in at least a year.” Sitting down at the table he eyed the food hungrily.

He laughed at the way Himoto stared at the food as if it would disappear suddenly. “Well it was no trouble and I wanted to do it so it wasn’t a big deal really.”

He carefully made himself a heaping plate and took a bite out of the pancake and knew he was done for, moaning in ecstasy he looked up at Sei with shinning eyes. ”This has got to be the best food I’ve ever tasted!!”

He blushed at the praise he was unaccustomed to receiving. “It’s nothing special just a bit of breakfast before school.” Looking at his watch he grimaced. “Speaking of school I have to get ready.

He stopped with his fork halfway to his mouth. “You feel up to going to school? I mean you just got out of the hospital yesterday.”

“Yes but I was also there for only a day so my injuries weren’t that severe so I’ll be fine.” With that he ran up to shower and change for school, lucky for him his school uniform was in his bag so he only needed to buy a few extra clothes and he’d be fine.

He stared after Sei worried about his health but decided to just keep a close eye on him during school and see how it went, finishing his food he went to change his clothes for school as he continued to think about how good that food had been

Walking to his next class Sei did his best not to think about the pain in his sides and back that had been throbbing since second period, he had no choice but to hang tough till school let out, besides he only had lunch and then his last four periods and he was out of here.

“Hey Sei how are you? I mean you being in the hospital and I’ll was worried,” said Reyna as she ran up beside him.

“Oh I’m doing much better today thanks.” He turned and headed to the cafeteria with Reyna following close behind him.

“So um….I was wondering if maybe you’re feeling up to it and your not busy on Sunday if you wanted to go out with me.” She hung her head looking at him with a blush staining her cheeks.

He stared her slightly open mouthed as he took in what she’d just asked him, it was the first time a girl had ever wanted to date him and he didn’t want to hurt her but he had the slight problem of liking guys. “Well uh Reyna….I am flattered you like me so much but....”

“Oh I get it….You already have a girlfriend huh?” She looked up at him with defeated eyes.

“No! It’s not like that Reyna it’s just that…” He looked at her helplessly.

“But then why won’t you go out with me if you not already seeing someone!?” She placed her hands on his chest and looked deeply into his eyes searching for her answer.

He looked down at her dejected face wishing he could just say yes and go out with her so she wouldn’t get hurt. “Reyna.....You know what? Forget what I said at first ok, I’d love to go out with you.”

Her whole face lit up as she wrapped her around him tightly. “Oh thank you Sei!! I promise I’ll be a great girlfriend!!

He stared at her happy face and he actually felt relieved that he had said yes to her. “Well I’m glad I could make you so happy.”

Nodding she slipped her hand in his. “Yes you have made me very happy!! Now let’s head to class.”

“Ok yea let’s go then.” So hand in hand they headed to class.

Unbeknownst to them Himoto had seen the whole incident and he was now leaning against the wall with his eyes closed.

HERE's FIVE!!

He glanced around the small apartment as he carried his things in. “Where are your parents? Won’t they mind I’m staying here?

He looked down at Sei with a small smile. “I live alone. So no they won’t mind.”

He looked up shocked and sorry. “Oh I didn’t know I’m sorry.”

“Hey it’s not like their dead we just don’t get along so I moved out. No biggie.” He took Sei’s things and showed him to his room.

“So they just let you live on your own?” To him that sounded like the perfect life.

“Yes as long as I keep my grades above passing level then their happy.” He sat the things down and turned to Sei. “Well this is your room, I know it’s a little shabby but it’ll have to do ok.”

“No this is great! I’m just glad to have a nice place to sleep!” He walked over and sat down on the bed, he looked at Himoto and smiled happily. “I can’t thank you enough.”

Stopping cold he stared down at Sei’s smiling face and his breath caught, he walked over to him and hauled him up pulling him into his embrace once again, and he held him tight as he inhaled his scent. “I was scared to death and I don’t know why!!”

His heart felt like it was about to beat right out of his chest as he slowly raised his own arms and wrapped them around Himoto’s waist. “I didn’t mean to make you worry I’m sorry.”

He buried his face into Sei’s hair and sighed. “So tell me why do I feel this overwhelming urge to protect you?”

He took in a deep breath as his heart sped up even more and the blood rushed from his head down to his unmentionable parts. “It has to be because you…You see me like a really good friend or maybe even a little brother type.” His heart nearly broke saying those words but he knew that he couldn’t ruin Himoto’s life by letting him know of his feelings.

For some reason these words weren’t what he wanted hear but he also knew that if he admitted to have feelings for Sei other than a friend than Sei would probably hate him so he went with that. “Yea I think your right. So as your self nominated brother and new best friend it’s my job to protect you!”

Blushing he pulled out of his arms. “Well then I suppose I should start on our dinner then huh?” He began to walk but got light headed and fell backwards into Himoto’s waiting arms.

“Well you’re just falling for me huh?” He regretted the words as soon as they were spoken for Sei’s face took on a look of pure undisguised shock. “Uh here you rest I’ll order out for tonight ok?” He sat him back on the bed.

“Uh yea ok then.” He laid down on the bed and closed his eyes as Himoto walked out closing the door behind him. “What am I doing!?”

Walking down stairs he hung his head lamely. “Man this is gonna suck ass! I mean I don’t even know what the hell is wrong with me and I asked him to live with me!?” Sighing he walked over to the phone and ordered some pizza hoping Sei liked what he got then went in and sat down on the couch. “God this is going to be hell for who knows how long.”

He didn’t know how long he stared into the darkness as his thoughts raced back and forth in his brain. “I have no idea what to do anymore. I mean I can’t stay here forever but if I go home then my parents will most definitely kill me this time around!” Slinging his feet to the floor he padded softly down the stairs to find Himoto who was asleep on the couch.

Walking over to the couch he knelt down beside him and smoothed a hand over his face as he admired his beauty. “This really will not work…not with the growing feelings I have.” Leaning over he nearly stopped breathing as his lips inched closer and closer towards Himoto’s then just as they were about to touch the doorbell rang causing Himoto to spring up bashing his head into Sei’s. “AHH! OW!” He fell backwards on the floor as Himoto fell back on the couch.

Rubbing his head he hurried and got up and swung open the door to pay for the pizza, when he got back Sei was holding his head so he knelt down and brushed his hair aside to see a bump forming. “Sorry about that I didn’t know you right there. It’ll be alright so let’s just eat ok.” Without meaning to he kissed the sore spot on his head then turned back to the food with out a second thought.

He moved his hand slowly up to where Himoto had kissed him and gently slid his fingers across the sore spot, he could tell that it didn’t mean a thing to Himoto but to him it was one of the sweetest gestures ever. “Thanks for the pizza Himoto.”

“Huh? Oh yea no sweat, I was hungry you were to so pizza it was!” He then gobbled down his second slice.

He nibbled lightly on his slice hoping to get at least one piece down but he wasn’t so sure his body could take it right now, to be honest ever since he got that bump on the head his sides had ached, his head throbbed and he was trying his hardest not to start hacking up lung again. “So do you have a job or do your parents pay for this place?” He tried to keep things light for now.

He wiped away the sauce from his chin and answered. “I have a part time job and pay for the utilities but my parents pay for the full rent.”

“Oh I see well I guess that’s easier on you then.” By now his head was so bad he could barely see straight and he wanted to cough so bad that his lungs were on fire but still he held strong.

He looked over and noticed Sei looked like he was trying not to so much as breathe and he was sweating at his brow. “You’re sick!” It was a statement not a question.

He snapped his gaze back to Himoto and shook his head slowly. “No I’m just tired is all please don’t let your food get cold on my behalf.”

“Like hell! You look shit and I’m betting you feel even worse than you look so it’s got to be bad.” He put down his plate and walked over to Sei, he then scooped him up in his arms.

“Hey put me down! I can walk you know!?” He swatted at him but it was no use and Himoto just laughed at his attempts.

“Give it up little man there’s no way you could ever beat me when it comes to strength.” He carried him up to his room and laid him down on the bed again. “So how about you just stay in bed until morning and then we’ll see if you can make it to school ok?”

“Uh huh it’s not like I’ll have a say in it with you around now will I?” He looked at him with what he hoped was an irritated face but he knew it was more likely that he was grinning.

He blinked and gave him his best look of innocence. “Who little old me?” He then grinned wickedly and laughed. “I just don’t want you pushing yourself to hard ok?”

“Yea I know I’ll get some sleep ok?” He plopped back on his pillows and pulled the blanket up like a small child would do.

“Oh such a good kid you are!” They both laughed at that even though it wasn’t that funny. “Ok then good-night Sei.”

“Good-night Himoto and thanks again for being such a great friend. Even if I’ve been nothing but trouble since we met.”

“Yea well trouble or not I’m glad to have met a strange kid like you, it’s good to have a friend like you around since I was an only child so now it’s like I’ve got myself a kid brother and it’s kind of nice, any who you need to rest so lay down and get some sleep ok, good-night.”

“Ok night.” He rolled over and closed his eyes letting a deep sleep over take him.

He watched Sei until he heard his breath become deeper and even as he drifted off asleep, after pulling the covers tightly around him he got up and stared at him before leaning down and softly pressing his lips to Sei’s allowing himself to savor the taste of this forbidden kiss, when Sei stirred though he jerked back and ran to his room.

Once back in his room he sat on the bed and rested his face in his hands. “What the hell is wrong with me!? He looks to me like a brother if he knew about my weird feelings he would freak out!” At that thought he promised to never treat Sei any different from a brother or friend ever again.

Back in Sei’s room he was tossing and turning as he had both nightmares about his parents and fantasies about Himoto, eventually Himoto became his hero as he killed his parents and rescued him from his horrible life, taking him far away so they could be happy together sealing their love with a kiss. “Ahh!” He woke up panting from the dream wishing things would just go back to normal.

Ok here is the update I promised you stef.....I hope there aren't a whole lot of mistakes.....but I bet there will be

PART FOUR IS HERE!!!

He held Sei like that for what seemed like an eternity before slowly pulling back to look in the frail boy’s shimmering eyes. “Who did this to you?”

Averting his eyes he pretended to find the sheets very interesting. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

He hooked his fingers around Sei’s chin and forced him too look him in the eyes. “You know damn well what I’m talking about! Who the hell beat the shit out of you!?”

Jerking back with enough force that it caused pain to shoot through out his body he held his ground and glared at Himoto. “Fine if you must know I get picked on ok! With my looks and all I’m an easy target, Happy!?”



He stared wide eyed at Sei who looked like he was using all of his strength to just hold back the tears. “No I’m not happy, but I won’t push it any further either so just get some ok?”

Nodding he swiped at his eyes trying to wipe away the tears threatening to overwhelm him. “Yea rest sounds good.”

“Ok then will you be ok until I get back?”

He was about to say yes until he realized that he just said he would be returning. “You’re coming back?”

He laughed at Sei’s overly shocked expression. “Well I can’t let you stay up here all alone can I?”

“Well yea I mean you have no obligation to hang around a hospital just because you feel sorry for a halfwit like me.”

His eyes hardened when Sei talked down on himself like that. “You’re not a halfwit and I’m coming back because I feel like it ok?”

He couldn’t help but stare at Himoto with an expression of awe as a faint blush stained his pale cheeks. “Thank you.”

Smiling as he opened the door he looked back one last time. “Just don’t think you’ve gotten out of making up for ditching me on Sunday ok?” He then left before Sei could the last word.

Sei was in to much shock thinking about the today’s events to even realize that someone else had entered the room, looking up his eyes grew round with fear as he stared up at his very angry parents. “Mom, Dad! Why are you two here?”

Stepping up his mother frowned at him. “Why honey we’re your parents. Why wouldn’t we come to get our son out of this awful place?”

“Yea we came to get you out of here and take you home to get some rest.” His dad said.

He started shaking at the looking their eyes and bravely shook his head.” No I have to stay here for a few days until the doctor says I can go home.”

His mom glared at him with contempt as she spoke. “Darling we will be taking you home right now, we are your parents and you will abide by our rules!”

“Listen to your mother boy and get your things so we can get out of here right now!” By now his father’s voice had malice dripping with every word.

Lowering his eyes he shook his head again. “No I won’t go home with you now!”

His mother slapped him hard on the cheek. “Don’t you ever talk back to me you little bastard!”

Cupping his cheek he looked up at is so-called parents. “Hit me all you want I won’t go back with you!”

“Oh yes you will! Whether you want to or not!” His father walked up and hauled Sei up off the bed.

“No don’t! Stop it! I don’t want to go with you, I hate you!” He slammed his mouth in shock at what he’d just said but it was too late for his dad had already started dragging him to the door.

“Just wait till we get home! Then you’re really in for it!” said his mom.

He pulled at his arm with all his might but by now his sides had began to ache with the pressure he was putting on his wounds and he was losing his fight to stay. “Please don’t make go home! Leave me alone!” Just when the last of his strength gave away there was a knock at the door causing his parents to revert to their doting mom and dad act.

In walked the doctor with a handful of files. “Oh you must be the boy’s parents! Good I was hoping to go over his files with you if that’s alright?”

His mother gave him a grateful smile. “Yes of course anything I am just so glad you called. I’ve been so worried about him.”

“Yes his mother and I have been out of our minds with worry about where he was.” His father said as he came up beside his wife.

“Well that’s good now if you’ll just come with me we can look over these and talk.” He led them out and to his office.

Curling up in a ball on the bed with his knees pulled up to his chin he simply sat there as the pain in his shoulder and arm from where struggled with father settled in. “Why!? Why can’t they just love me like normal parents!? I never did anything wrong to them so why…” He silently cried himself to sleep after that.

Himoto ran through his tasks at school like clockwork only thinking of how Sei was all alone up in that hospital. “Hey teach I’ve already missed a lot of my classes can’t I just skip the rest!?”

“No you may not sir so get back to your language studies!” The teacher reprimanded him.

With a grunt he fell back in his chair and glared at his school book. He didn’t know why but he felt as if something back was happening to Sei and he needed him right now, yet he couldn’t even get of a few measly work assignments to get there to help him. “This fucking sucks ass!”

“Mister Himoto please report to the principal’s office right now young man!”

Getting up he walked off leaving his books and left, walking right past the office he ran out the school doors and headed once again to the hospital with a heart full unreasonable fear.

He started wide eyed as he took in what the doctor just told him. “I can go home already?”

“Well yes your parents can handle giving you your medicine and I’m sure you’d much rather be with your family rather being stuck in this hospital, right?” He smiled kindly as he spoke.

“See isn’t that great honey? Don’t you want to go home and relax in your own bed while a make a nice dinner for you?” His mother stroked his cheek to play off the affect of a loving mother.

“Yea kid your mother will make you the best meal you’ve ever had to welcome you home and then you can get all the spoiled treatment a teenage boy could want.” His dad said with a laugh.

Laughing at their friendly banter the doctor walked over to Sei’s bedside. “See it’ll be good for you to go on home with your parents.”

Forcing a small laugh he scooted off the bed to gather his things. “I’m sure they’ll take good care of me, I’ll just pack my things.”

“Oh honey let your father do that you’re too weak.” She came over and put an arm over his shoulder to bolster him.

“I got his things just make sure he don’t fall on the way down to the car ok hun?” Lifting Sei’s stuff he headed out.

“Thank you Doctor for all your help, we’ll be sure and pay you tomorrow ok.” She waved and started helping Sei down the hall.

“So what will you really do when you get home?” He looked up at her now cold and angry face.

“We’ll see when we get there, now you wait here I forgot my purse don’t move!” She walked off knowing he wouldn’t dare defy her right now.

He fidgeted nervously as he waited for his mom to come back, he was so busy thinking that he didn’t hear anything until someone called his name from right behind him, whirling around he saw Himoto standing there out of breath. “Himoto? Why are you back so soon?”

“Well I just felt like I should be here until you get to go home. So why are you standing out here in the hall anyways?” He looked around but he saw were nurses and a few doctors.

“I was….I was supposed to go h-home…” He looked down hiding the tears.

“Hey that’s great now you can just take it easy while your parents do all the work right?” He smiled but his smile fell when he realized Sei’s shoulders were shaking as if he were crying. “What’s wrong Sei?”

He shook his head knowing he couldn’t very well say the reason he was afraid to go home was because he knew his parents would beat him until there was nothing left to beat, but still he couldn’t home or he might die this time around. “The person who did this to me…it was my neighbor but I can’t tell my parents yet so I’m afraid to go home. You see it’s my neighbor who is here to take me home so I’m scared.”

He cringed at the thought of someone hurting Sei again so he walked over and put his arms around him and pulled him close. “I won’t let you get hurt ok?”

Nodding he clung to Himoto’s chest and cried silently, until he finally lifted his head to look at him slightly embarrassed. “Sorry.”

He smiled down at him and shrugged. “I must admit this is the fist time I’ve comforted a guy in their time of need but hey no big deal.” Brushing his hair aside he lifted his chin up. “Sei how about you stay at my place until we can figure something out else ok?”

Startled he stared at him for a few seconds. “You mean it? I won’t be a bother?”

“No or else I wouldn’t have offered right?” Laughing he slung his arm over Sei’s thin shoulders. “Now let’s get out of this hellhole.”

Looking back in time to see his mom rounding the corner he pulled Himoto onto the elevator and smiled gratefully at him. “I really appreciate this you know?”

“Yes and I’ll make you pay for it all some day since I’m such a nice guy.” He laughed at Sei’s stunned look.

When he realized Himoto was joking he laughed a bit too and smiled a bit more happily now. “Yea well I will repay you for your help one of these days.”

“Well can you cook?” He asked with a gleam in his eyes.

Looking up at him for second he wondered why he wanted to know but decided it didn’t really matter. “Yes I can cook in fact I’ve been cooking since I was nine. Why?”

He whooped and pulled Sei into his arms. “Alright you are now my cooking slave!”

He laughed self consciously at being hugged out in the open like this. “Uh I’ll cook for you but only if you let me go ok?”

At first he let go thinking he was hurting him but when he saw the look on his face he realized it must have made him remember the kiss from early this morning and made him feel uncomfortable. “Oh sorry about that…but you’re still cooking for me!”

He shook his head and laughed softly. “Ok, ok I’ll cook for you once I’m able to move around a little better ok?”

Smiling he agreed to that plan. “Ok then but I’ll warn you now I’m a picky eater so be prepared to cook some five star meals!”

Ok here and enjoy my story and its many flaws lol

part 3

“I know I know he’ll most definitely be limping though!” Picking up his son by the collar he slammed him hard into the wall and continually punched him in the stomach until he started coughing up large amounts of blood.

“Leave him be and come eat. We’ll have him clean up this mess later.” She motioned her husband to the kitchen.

“Yea I’m coming.” He let him slide to the floor in a puddle of his own blood then walked downstairs.

Pulling open his eyes he tried to push himself up off the floor and managed to slide along the wall to the bedroom, once in he fell to the floor once again and slid back into unconsciousness praying he’d never wake up.

The next morning he was able to pull himself together enough to get ready for school, he was able to cover most of the bruises with long clothes and he forged his parents signature on a note to get out of P.E. then limped downstairs and headed to school.

Himoto walked angrily through the hallways as he made his way to class. “Damnit I had the worst fucking Sunday ever thanks to that damn kid!” Yea he had spent the whole day wondering why Sei had up and left the way he did, on top of that he had worried about him the entire time as well.

Limping into the hall he stopped for a moment to catch his breath but it caught in throat when he saw Himoto standing not ten feet away. ‘Ok stay calm he hasn’t seen you so just slide on by and nothing will happen.” Ducking his head he moved as quickly as he could without being noticed, apparently though it was not good enough because the next thing he new he was being slammed against the lockers so hard everyone stopped to stare.

“What the hell was the matter with you!? Don’t you think I fucking worried when you just up and disappeared!?” He glared daggers as he questioned Sei not caring about the thirty some students watching them.

“What does it matter to you? I know you only helped because I was so pathetic!” he struggled against his grip but he held firmly as he pressed him against the wall.

“What are you talking about!? I helped you because you needed help! And you repaid me by taking off without a word!” He pushed him against the wall until they were nearly pressed together.

“Let me go!” He pulled and twisted until his wrists burned but it was of no use what so ever.

“No! I think I should make you pay for being so stupid and running out when you were sick!” Without even meaning to he pressed his lips against Sei’s in a passionate kiss, sliding his tongue into his mouth ah he savored the taste of what could possibly be called sin, of course he was brought back to reality when he heard the other students gasping and Sei’s sounds of displeasure and obviously anger. He jerked away so fast that Sei crumpled to the floor.

He panted as he tried desperately to gain control over his emotions, looking at Himoto through his bangs he saw that he was visibly shaking as if he were completely disgusted by what he’d just done. “W-why did you do that!?”

Looking around he saw all the others staring in part shock part disgust, then he glanced down at Sei knowing he couldn’t very well say he kissed him because he’d wanted to so smirking he leaned close and said loud enough for all to hear. “I told you I’d punish you so what better way than to be kissed by a boy in front of the whole school? Well next time you won’t be such a little bastard. Now if you’ll excuse me I have some ladies to see.” He then walked off without a backwards glance.

It took everything he had not to call out to Himoto as he walked away, holding back the tears he stood shakily to his feet but as he used the lockers to pull himself up a sudden pain shot through his body and he fell over and began coughing so hard that he coughed up blood into his hand.

He was about halfway down the hall when a shout rang through the air, as if in slow motion he turned and was welcomed with the sight of Sei leaned over coughing up a vast amount of blood into his hand and on the floor. ”SEI!!!!”

Using all the strength he had he lifted his head up and was shocked to see Himoto running towards him with a look of panic mixed with fear on his face. “H-Himoto?” He could say no more as his body was racked with another coughing spasm.

Kneeling beside Sei he was in a near state of panic as he watched him cough up the blood in obvious pain, so doing the only thing he could he scooped him up into his arms and headed out the doorway. ”Someone tell a teacher I took Sei Ichiru to the hospital.” He then took off running.

It had been nearly an hour since he’d arrived at the hospital and the doctors had taken Sei away, since then he’d been pacing anxiously waiting for some news…hopefully good. “Oh come on how long does it take to run a few fucking tests!?”

“Well I’ll tell you now that he is doing well now.” Said the Doctor.

Whirling around he saw a tall man in a white coat. “So what’s wrong with him!?”


“Honestly I must say it looks like the boy had the crap beat of him….the thing is that there is evidence that this has happened on a number of occasions.” He took off his glasses as said this with a drawn expression.

“You mean he’s been abused?” An anger he’d never felt before suddenly boiled under his skin.

“If I had to guess I’d say yes and it’s most likely by someone close to him.” He held is hand motioned for the boy to follow him to a near by window looking into a room. “He’s resting now but he can’t be released until we know what happened for sure.”
Squeezing his hands into fists he stared at sei as he recalled the doctor’s words and nearly cried in anger at the thought of Sei being beat up.

Stirring he opened his heavy eyelids to see Himoto sitting in a chair next to the hospital bed looking on the verge of tears, gently lifting his hand he reached and placed it on top of his larger one. “Himoto are you ok?”

Gasping he looked down at the smaller hand on top of his own and then at Sei. ”Your ok?”

Nodding he smiled a small half smile. “Yea all thanks to you I guess….sorry about leaving on Sunday but it freaked me out was all.”

“Oh that…I am really the one who should be saying sorry you know?” Tilting his head he stared sadly into Sei’s eyes.

“What do you have to say sorry for?” He questioned him a bit confused.

“I did all that stuff to you when you were hurt so badly…I probably made it worse on you and all because of my damn temper.”

Shaking his head he smiled again. “Don’t be sorry you had every right to be angry and I’m not upset about it so let it go.”

“Uh…ok then. Well I’d better be going I guess.” He got up and turned to leave but he made no movement to go.

Confused he stared at Himoto a second. “Now what’s wrong?” The next thing he knew he was in Himoto’s embrace as he held him against his chest as if he’d never let go, and at the moment he wished they could stay like this forever.

Yea yea there will be plenty of dumb ass mistakes who the hell cares!?!?!

Part Two

“No I can make it home on my own and to be honest I have no desire to stay here tonight.” Rising up he pushed past Himoto.

“You’re barely able to stand! Now what happens if you end up passing out in the rain tonight with no one around?” He cocked a brow as he stared at Sei trying to stand on shaky legs.

“I’ll take my chances thank you very much!” Standing he walked to the door, grabbing the knob he was about to swing the door open when a wave of dizziness hit him and as he let a moan he felt two strong arms wrap around him and hold him close as he once again lost consciousness.

Shaking his head he heaved the kid up in his arms and took him up to his room and laid him on the bed. ”Sheesh kid you’d think you’d at least be smart enough to watch out for your own health.” He finished undressing him then pulled the blanket up over him and made sure he was warm enough before getting up to leave, but he didn’t make it to the door before he heard Sei whimpering so he walked quietly over there to see the boy was almost in tears. “What the hell? Why is he crying he’s not that sick?” Sighing he sat down on the bed and brushed the hair out of his face and felt his forehead which was very warm but he never got the chance to go get some medicine for Sei pulled him onto the bed and wrapped his arms around his waist tightly. ”Ack! Great now I’m a freaking teddy bear for some sick kid!!” He gave in and let sleep take him not really caring that he was being embraced by another boy at the moment.

The light nearly blinded him when he opened his eyes, looking around he was confused about where he was but before he could gather his thoughts someone snaked their arm out around his waist and pull him close. “Ehh!?” Looking down he saw Himoto was clinging to him like a lover would. “Uh…uh….HIMOTO!!!!”

Jerking upright at the sound of his name being screamed he looked around in a daze. “Huh?”

“Why the hell am I in your bed? And why the hell are you hugging me?”
“Oh that…Well you fainted so I carried you up here but you were sick and ended up pulling me onto the bed so instead of waking you up I just sorta fell asleep.” Yawning he sat up and looked at the clock. “Eight thirty…..good thing it’s Sunday or we’d be in trouble.”

“Excuse me but how can you not be upset about sleeping with another man?” He was trying hard to keep the frustration out of his voice but this was a really hard situation for him right now.

“Well it’s not like we really slept together I mean you were sick so it’s not that big a deal right?” Throwing back the blankets he crawled over Sei like it was nothing and headed for the bathroom.

All he could do was sit there with a dumbfounded expression on his face as Himoto closed the bathroom door behind him. “What am I going to do now!? This is by far the worst thing that could happen!” Glancing at the door making sure he’d be at least a few minutes he then gathered his things and snuck downstairs and slipped out. ”It’ll be best for me to just get home as quickly as possible.” With that he began to run home.

He leaned against the bathroom door and slid to the floor as he caught his breath, waking up next to Sei this morning he’d almost reached up to kiss him good morning like it was nothing. “I don’t get it!! I’m not gay I know that for sure….So why do I like him the way I do?” Sighing he stood up and splashed some cold water on his face then prepared to face Sei but when he opened the door he was shocked to see the boy had ran off while he was in the bathroom. “Well that sneaky little bastard he ran away scared.” Shrugging and thinking it didn’t matter he went down stairs for some food determined to not think about Sei for the rest of the day no matter what.

Walking slowly up the steps to his house he opened the door as quietly as he could in hopes that his parents wouldn’t wake up and decide to chew his ass out. “Damnit if only he hadn’t made me stay last night I wouldn’t be about to get the crap beat out of me!” Sneaking in he sat his bag down and crept up stairs and into his room only to turn around and see his parents waiting for him in their doorway. “Mom, Dad? How long have you been awake?”

“I think the real question is just where the hell you have been since last night!?” His dad yelled.

“Yes dear please tell us why you thought you would get away with staying out all night and not get punished for it when you got home!?” His mom asked in an irritated voice.

“I-I was at a friends house. I only stayed because it started raining last night and I didn’t have an umbrella so he said I could stay till it died down but I ended up falling asleep…I’m sorry.” He took a step forward with his lowered knowing full and well what was coming next.

“That’s right boy you know when to behave. Well you will be severely punished for not coming home last night without calling!” he slammed a fist down on the back of Sei’s neck causing him to crumple to the floor.

“Remember not to hit him on the face or people will get nosy and start asking questions.” His mom said as she headed to the kitchen.

I don't bloody care if there are spelling errors this time...(Glares at mahina) :P

Confused First Love (Re-done)

Sei wondered through the hallway glancing in the class room doors as he searched for his homeroom, but due to his lack of concentration he ended up smashing into someone and went crashing to the ground. “Oh my god I'm so sorry I was completely zoned out..." He stopped in mid-sentence as he stared up at the gorgeous man standing in front of him , he had shoulder length black hair swept up in a partial ponytail , the deepest blue eyes he'd ever seen not to mention the fact that he had the most erotic and sensual body he'd ever laid his eyes on.

"Hey ya gonna sit there all day or you gonna get up?"

At the sound of his harsh voice he snapped out of his fantasy world. "Oh excuse me I'm terribly sorry for running into you like that, I was just looking for my class was all." He hoped his voice gave away nothing of the intense desire he was feeling.

"Whatever it's not me who was knocked flat on my ass. Here let me help you up ok."

Sei stared at the hand and then shook his head, gathered his things mumbled a quick thanks then darted off down the hall. "I hope I never run into that guy again."

Staring after the boy Himoto was in a bit confused at why the kid had taken off so suddenly, but he shrugged it off as him being just plain weird. “Tell myself one thing that’s got to be the finest ass I've ever seen on another boy before." He was halfway down the hall before he realized he just admitted to finding another man attractive, unsure of what to do he headed for the gym intending to skip his next class and gather his wits.

Sei had gotten over this morning’s events and was now progressing nicely in his new school, he had made a few new friends and managed to make it through lunch with out any other problems. "Well now’s the real test....Urg! I hate gym class and I look so stupid in those dorky shorts!" Frustrated he didn't hear anyone come up behind him until someone grabbed his shoulder, spinning around he saw Reyna a girl he'd met in second period.

“Hey Sei I didn't mean to scare you I just came to walk with you to gym class if that's ok?" Smiling at her he nodded.

"Yea I'd like that I barely found all my classes this morning so it'll be nice to walk with a friendly face." She giggled and grabbed his hand in hers.

“Good because I might have stolen you away against your will if you had said no." Laughing a bit he walked with her down the hall with his spirits once again high, little did he know how drastic of a turn his life was about to take.

Wincing at the loud screaming Himoto opened his eyes only to see a bunch of students playing basketball. “Oh shit I fell asleep again damnit!" Checking his watch he saw that he'd slept through all his morning classes. “Well that's just fucking great that damn principal is never gonna let me hear the end of this."

He was getting ready to leave and slip out for the rest of the day when suddenly a shout went up in the air, turning he saw that one of the students was laying in the middle of gym floor unconscious. It was obvious he had taken a rather bad blow to the stomach but what caught his attention was when he realized it was the same boy from this morning. "Aww that damn brat has gone and got himself hurt." He headed out onto the floor preparing to offer to take him to the infirmary but he went white when he heard someone shout that he wasn't breathing, breaking into a run he pushed through the others and with out thinking he tilted the boy's head back and pressed his own lips against his performing mouth to mouth. He repeated the motion until finally his body gave a small jerk and he opened his eyes. "Well, well sleeping beauty awakens. You know you really gave us a scare, now get up and I'll take you to the school nurse and get you checked out." Helping the stunned boy up he made a path through the other students and headed to the infirmary completely unaware of what this one simple act would lead to in the future.

Himoto waited in the infirmary while the nurse checked the other kid over but his patience was wearing thin after ten minutes. “Hey lady how much longer do I have to wait around here, I barely know this guy.”

“Well I assumed since you brought him here you were his friend but by all means leave if you want, he on the other hand will be here awhile.” With that said she went to get some pain relievers.

Sighing he wandered over behind the curtain to look at the boy he’d lugged here.” Man you sure did cause me a shit load of trouble ya damn kid!” The sound of sheets rustling drew his gaze back to the kid who was now staring at him with large sad eyes.

“I’m sorry this is the second time you’ve had to deal with my stupidity!” Sei wiped at his eyes and hung his head to avoid looking at the taller boy.

“Hey now I wasn’t being serious and it’s not like you meant to cause me any trouble so don’t act so moody…”

“Yea but first I ran into you then ended up having to have you drag my good for nothing but to the infirmary cause I’m dumb enough to get hit by a basketball.”

“So what it’s not like a flimsy thing like you hurt me when ya ran into me and I only brought you here because I felt like it, you didn’t force me into it so lighten up ok.”

“I guess so…Well I’m alright now so you don’t have to bother with staying any longer I’m sure you have things you’d rather be doing.” In truth he really wanted this guy to leave considering it had only taken talking with this guy for a few minutes to have him burning up and if the guy didn’t leave soon he’d figure out just how turned on he was by him.

“Well I’m not to busy but the Principal sure as hell is pissed with me by now, so I might wanna duck out before he catches me just hanging around again. So see around sometime I guess.” He got up to leave and turned a little to wave but stopped and stared at the sight of the smaller boy, for some reason seeing him in that large bed with his tiny body made him look unbelievably beautiful and frail looking.

“Er…Is something wrong?” He was getting hotter with every second that passed and now with those blue eyes burning into his it made feel as though he would explode soon.

Snapping out of his daze he gave what he hoped was a smile. “Uh no I was just curious as to what your name was?”

“Oh um my name is Sei, Sei Ichiru nice to meet you uh…?” He fumbled and hoped the other guy would supply his name.

“Right I’m Himoto, Himoto Kurai and the pleasures all mine.” He had to be out of his fucking mind to be flirting with another guy, but sure enough that’s exactly what he was doing.

“Well thanks for everything but you’d better leave before you get in any trouble.” He let out a sigh of relief when he nodded and took off.

Stumbling in through the door Sei dropped his backpack by the door and head straight for his room and plopped down on the bed running today’s events through his head once more. “Man I just can’t believe after all the work I’ve done to hide the fact that I like guys I end nearly blowing it over a little attraction…I can’t be around that guy anymore or I might seriously loose it.” Rolling to his side he sighed and closed his eyes and prayed everything would just go back to normal.

Throwing a freezer meal in the microwave oven Himoto sat down at the kitchen table and yawned as he waited for the food to cook.” Man today was just plain weird and that guy Sei was the weirdest thing of all today.” He thought back on the two encounters he’d had with him and shivered in disgust as recalled how he had shamelessly flirted with another guy.” I must need a woman real bad if I’m starting to find a girlish guy like him good-looking.” That’s when it hit him, it was because Sei looked so feminine that he saw him as attractive. Smiling he walked over and picked up the phone and dialed Shimizu’s number. “Hey girl missed me?”

“Depends on what you want cutie?”

“Since when do I want anything for myself? No I just called to see if you busy tonight and if maybe you want to go out?”

“Hmm well I’m free so you can pick me up at seven and take me to dinner and out to a club. Then maybe I’ll make it up to you later in the evening ok?”

“You got it sweetheart and believe me if your with me then you know you’ll have a good time right honey?”

“He-he yea you always know how to show us ladies a good time, well then I’ll get ready and see you tonight.”

“Later.” He hung up the phone and turned back to his food which was now burned in the microwave. “Damnit I never can get this damn thing to fix decent and edible food!” Throwing it away he headed up to shower and get ready for his date.

Pulling open his eyes Sei focused in on the clock and was surprised to see it was already seven fifteen at night.” Man I must have been more worn out than I thought.” Stumbling down stares he saw his mom at the stove and his dad sitting at the table reading the paper.

“Oh you’re finally up? Well I didn’t make enough for you so go out and eat ok.” His mother gave him a shooing motion as she told him to leave.

“Yea and pick me up some smokes on your way home to ya little punk!” He flinched at his dads’ harsh tone.

“Ok I’ll be home later tonight then.” Pulling on his jacket he headed out to find some dinner and hopefully wouldn’t be back till his parents were fast asleep. Walking outside into the cold he walked towards the city and for anyplace that he could get a cheap meal and some time alone. “Looks like moving hasn’t done shit for my life after all.” Shaking his head and breathing out a puff of cold breath he tried not to think of how badly his life sucked at the moment.

He flashed his most charming smile at the waitress as she took their orders and she enough she blushed and a cute light pink. “We’ll also have a bottle of Cherry Wine if you don’t mind?”

“Um well are you twenty-one?”

“Oh come on sweetie can’t you let the rules slide just this once I have a special lady here I can’t be looking bad now can I?”

She hesitated a moment before smiling a shy smile. “Ok just this once but if anybody asks you had a fake I.D. buster.” With that she smiled and headed to the kitchen.

“Wow Himoto you are quite the charmer aren’t you?” Shimizu smiled slyly as she leaned over and pressed her lips to his.

After breaking the kiss he smiled sexily and winked at her. ”I have to be if I’m gonna keep a pretty girl like you happy.” He sure as hell would keep her happy tonight when he had her tight ass back in his bed.

“Well with all this extravagant treatment I’ll definitely have to make sure you get extra special treatment tonight huh?”

“Well doll that’s completely up to you, but I am happy just to have you in my sight.”

“Oh god you’re so corny with those lines. We both know you just want me to put out for you tonight because you’re a horn ball.” She grinned wickedly at him as the words left those bright red lips of hers.

“Me a horn ball, never!” The both laughed knowing that was total lie. He caught his breath and calmed himself as they placed their food and wine down on the table. “Well enjoy the feast beautiful.”

“Well darling I hope you also intend to treat me to your coat because it’s pouring outside now.” She said as she motioned to the window.

“Huh?” Looking away from his steak and out the window he saw that it had started raining really hard by now, but what really caught his interest was the figure run by, he could swear it was Sei and without even realizing much less thinking he got up and ran out side.

“Hey where are you going? Himoto! ”Shimizu yelled as he ran out the door.

He totally ignored Shimizu as he chased down what for some unknown reason was Sei, huffing and puffing as he ran trying to see with all the rain drops splashing into his eyes.”Damnit! Why the hell am I chasing him?” Without answering himself he ran even faster to catch him until he finally got close enough to reach out and grab the figure and yank him to where he faced him, sure enough it was Sei with water streaming down his face and an extremely shocked look on his face.

“Himoto what on earth are you doing out here in this weather? He stared at him as Himoto gasped for breath while he stared at him with those ocean eyes of his.

Why was he standing out here in the rain chasing after a boy he barely knew? “Well what about you? Why are you plowing through the rain this late at night?”

“It’s not that late. It’s only eight thirty and that still doesn’t tell me why you chased me down?” By now he was squirming self consciously due to the close proximity with Himoto.

“Uh well….I just saw you run by and was concerned about you what’s the big deal?” He looked away trying to avoid Sei’s probing eyes.

“Well thanks for worrying about me but I’ll be fine so you can go back to what ever you were doing ok.” In reality he just wanted him to leave because he had just spent the last hour running blindly and the last thirty of it was in the rain so by now his body was shaking with exhaustion and he just wanted to try and make it home without collapsing but every second he stood there his body grew weaker.

He noticed Sei looked pale and was shaking horribly.” How long have you been running and why the hell didn’t you say you worn to the point of breaking!!??

Taking a step back at the sudden anger in his voice he lost his balance and begin to fall but before he hit the ground he found himself in the arms of Himoto. ”What are you doing!? Put me down right now!!

“No way in hell are you capable of walking so I’m going to lug your sorry ass back to my house where you WILL get some rest then call your parents and go home got it!?”

All he could manage was a shaky nod of his head and even then he didn’t know what he was agreeing to for the darkness had already engulfed him and he let his head lull against Himoto as he passed out.

He had no trouble getting Sei home I mean how could he not? The boy was light as any girl. In fact he was lighter than even some girls he knew. “Man I just seem to be going out of my way to take care of this brat an awful lot lately.” Sighing he laid the boy down and began taking off his wet shirt so as though he wouldn’t get pneumonia. As he undressed him he took the time to let his roam over the boys’ body and before he knew it he had leaned over and his lips were now hovering above Sei’s, jerking back abruptly he walked into the kitchen and dropped in the chair with his head in his hands.

Shielding his eyes against the light he struggled to recall where he was and what had happened, looking around he saw Himoto sitting at a kitchen table and it all came crashing back to him.” Aaahh!” He immediately covered his mouth hoping Himoto hadn’t heard but just his luck he was already headed over to the couch.

“Good you’re awake. Now mind telling me why you thought it would be fun to take a rainy night jog?” He was shocked when Sei’s eyes suddenly welled up with tears and he shook his head fiercely.

“It’s not your concern now I’ll be going home if you don’t mind.” He got up to leave but Himoto pushed him back down.

“Your obviously have been through hell so stay the night and go home in the morning ok?

In case your confused I added more and re-published it due to many mistakes lol

MIRACLE NOSE!!!!!

Ok last night my brother and I were play fighting and wrestling around like we always do only this time I managed to lock his arms putting him at a disadvantage , well knowing boys he couldn't stand that so he reared up his knee and crashed it into my nose. Of course it hurt like hell and I instantly had tears in my eyes but beyond that I was just pissed so I ended up using my own knee to kick him in the back....I felt bad up until he called me a bitch , that just got me mad again. Anyways I was about to yell at him when I heard him scream and start yelling " OH MY GOD!" That was when I noticed that by this point my bed was being covered in blood , this in turn caused me to go into a small amount of shock so I ran to the bathroom to stop the bleeding , when out of nowhere I here my mom screaming and brother yelling it was really messed up. Yet when the blood finally slowed and i went to make sure my brother was ok and to wash the blood off I took one look at my brother's white face then the blood on my hand and just burst into a fit of giggles. Insane? Possibly but once I started I couldn't stop.

Anyways that was my night , amazingly enough mot only did I not do any serious damage to my nose but there isn't even a bruise or any pain what so ever.

So next time I have some cool and less bloody news I'll update ya'll!

I have to say that anyone who feels this way should never give
in to these thoughts.

This is for all those out there whose sufferring goes without
notice by others.

Sobbing as I stare at the blood soaking on the hard ground
Wishing I could have stopped the body from going in that cold dirt mound.
Weeping at the thought of a life so young ending so swiftly
Fighting to save the soul that was abandoned so quickly


Screaming at the ones who let this girl take her own life!
Hating everyone who could have stopped her from taking the knife
My heart aches as I think of how she will never love, how she’ll never live.
Cursing all the ones who took away her light and all she had to give!


Wanting to seek revenge on the hearts of those who caused her pain
Yet I can’t knowing it would all be in pointless vain
Her death could have been stopped simply with love
Instead she was sent to the heavens above.

Even though she now has angels smiling upon her she still weeps.
For I know she’ll never again have the one thing she seeks.
I know deep down she merely wanted the life she’ll never receive
Knowing this in my heart I can only sit and grieve.

As I think about all the things stolen from her I cry
For in my heart somewhere hidden I knew what it was to die
This girl I’d been weeping for, the one gone unseen.
She’s not real, for in all truth that girl was me.

Hidden pain may go without notice.
But it is far from bliss.

Well I'm here again!!

Ok............It's been awhile since I posted so I thought I would give every one another interesting peek into my wonderful mind!!

Ok listen and listen good.....or uh read seeing how you can't hear what it says......yea ok....anyways back to my point! I have been thinking alot lately about alot of different things one in particular is about how parents raise their children.

Has anyone ever noticed how parents will tell their kids to grow up and be more responsible yet they are terrified to give us even a little bit of that much deserved respect? I know for a fact that I know more about life and being resposible than my mom thinks in fact I've even had her ask me for advice , yet she is still completely unwilling to trust me with anything. I've also got a friend who has so much stress in their life due to the simple fact that thier parents are extremely harsh and want them to be perfect in any and every way.

All I know is that parents may think they know everything and they don't. So even though I know I can't do anything about it I decided to vent a bit and see if anybody else had my opinion?

This has been another wonderful look into my thoughts!